Utter amazement: wow-moments.

I love this phrase. Utter amazement. When you are so fascinated by something that you can’t speak, your heart skips a beat and (in my case) you’re in a split second of ultimate happiness. It happens to me. Not every day. I can explain.

Every day is new.. But that doesn’t mean every day is good. God makes them, but we can seriously spoil them if we don’t start off the day with Him. Sometimes I feel really bad though.. And if I don’t take time to relax in some sort of way I’ll end up in the night missing my man and being all cranky and lonely hidden in my room.

So… in the situations I am not.. I take time for something else.. I take a break.. Sometimes pretty short.. I have these little moments that my thoughts just get the chance to shut down from school and all the business I am in for a minute … And then it happens..

Whether I like it or not.. Whether I look out of the window, walk outside, sit at the piano or with a guitar, whether I look at a video, movie, or listen to music, there is this moment when I finally am stunned. That’s what I call a wow-moment. Like this week I took a walk with my mom outside after dinner, around 8 pm, and I see the dark sky, the area with lanterns and carlights and all these colors.. White, orange, yellow… in contrast to the dark dark-blue sky. And I am like: Wow.

That happened to me several times.. Or when I am ready to get to the dinner table and I look at the sky and I see the colors of it when the sun goes under.. I even had it in the garden in front of my house where I could see this big orange circle through the glass of my patio. The sun. I was like.. wow.

But I also have it when I am having an inspiration. I had it whenever I was at the piano just jammin’ and then suddenly this melody or lyric pops into my head.. And yeah, that makes me stand amazed as well. I always thank God for these moments. They make my day, they make me happy. They make me realize how valuable everything, and especially life is. I used to have this time when I doubted whether God spoke to me or anything, I have learned how He speaks. In several ways. And one of them is always through these little moments. Nature is always a major factor in them..

To come back to the aspect of happiness, many people chase happiness, as if it’s something they have to work for to gain, something they think they can find through having all the best things in the world, being in the best mental, physical or situational state. But it’s not like that. Happiness is something you gain from not overlooking the little things in life. Looking at little children makes me happy. Music makes me happy. Love makes me happy. People or interaction makes me happy. Observations make me happy. Nature makes me happy. And in the end: God does.

I have a few scriptures I’d like to share with you. Isaiah 45:3 for example.

“I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, 
so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.”

Another one is Ecclesiastes 5:18-20

“This is what I have observed to be good: that it is appropriate for a person to eat, to drink and to find satisfaction in their toilsome labor under the sun during the few days of life God has given them—for this is their lot. Moreover, when God gives someone wealth and possessions, and the ability to enjoy them, to accept their lot and be happy in their toil—this is a gift of God. They seldom reflect on the days of their life, because God keeps them occupied with gladness of heart.”

This scripture tells me a lot. First, I’d like to say that I think the wealth and possessions aren’t earthly possessions. I think they do make you happy, but in this scripture I can see these wealth and possessions as spiritual. Because, the Bible tells us not to gather our possessions on earth, they won’t mean anything to us in heaven. But, moments like these, and moments of love and all the happiness we’ve felt, will make us satisfied with any situation that we’re in, they will make us the people we are, they’ll define the way we live, they define our relationship with God. They will allow us and help us to accept the burdens we carry, they’ll help us to make sure we can actually carry them. I think that I can also add to this that this is a way that ‘Jesus carries our burdens’. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”, Matthew 11:28. God will give us these moments in order to be able to carry even more of our burdens, to make our load even lighter. Does that make any sense?

In this scripture I can see for myself why God gives you (and me) these wow-moments. They make me thankful, they make me thank God. The ultimate happiness and meaning of these observations I make come from Him. As said in this scripture, God gives you these little secret treasures, and it makes Him known to us. It makes me wanna thank Him. I don’t say ‘Oh, that’s such a coincidence’, the phrase that usually leaves my mouth is ‘Oh God, this is beautiful’ (and not as a cuss, God is ADRESSED to God). That’s how I know He gives these treasures to me. And that’s how I know how amazing and awesome and beautiful He is. He made all this.  He makes him known to me through these moments. God calls us through these moments, He pulls me even closer to His heart and make my importance to Him even more clear to me, He lets me know how valuable I am.  These moments in life bring me to my knees. They make me fall in love with Jesus even more and more. He is such a romantic.

Look at it this way: Don’t make it a quest for feeling the best, don’t think too big. You may always dream, but don’t outstretch yourself in a situation you can’t. I am not in the best circumstances right now. I don’t think anyone is, everyone carries their cross, right? God says that we have to be content with what we have in order to get better. So, be happy with the small things, and if you get bigger things, be even more thankful and happy. Just make sure you don’t overlook the small. Don’t forget how much you have, don’t forget all the treasures that you have already been given. Overthink for yourself what you can be happy and thankful for. Make sure you look at things positive and take time to take a break from all the daily things you do. Open yourself up for simplicity. God gives wow-moments to you to let you know that He wants you to be happy and enjoy His creation in your biggest mess.

Here are some awesome scriptures to end this post with (from WisdomQuotes).

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No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change. – Barbera de Angelis

There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state to another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must have felt what it is to die, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of life. – Alexandre Dumas

Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy — because we will always want to have something else or something more. - David Steindl-Rast

The basic thing is that everyone wants happiness, no one wants suffering. And happiness mainly comes from our own attitude, rather than from external factors. If your own mental attitude is correct, even if you remain in a hostile atmosphere, you feel happy. - Tenzin Gyatso, 14th Dalai Lama

But what is happiness except the simple harmony between a man and the life he leads? - Albert Camus

Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude. - Denis Waitley

If you observe a really happy man you will find him building a boat, writing a symphony, educating his son, growing double dahlias in his garden. He will not be searching for happiness as if it were a collar button that has rolled under the radiator. - W. Beran Wolfe

The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase, if you pursue happiness you’ll never find it. – C.P. Snow

If only we’d stop trying to be happy we’d have a pretty good time. – Edith Warton

Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you. - Nathaniel Hawthorne

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And that’s probably it for today.

A good post by James. (my boyfriend. A must-read, and that is not only a girlfriend opinion)

Some weeks ago I bought a necklace at a Christian book and T-shirt store. When I saw the necklace I was immediately drawn to it. It consists of a small black rope that is a little long for my taste but I ignored it. At the end of that rope is a round silver pendant with the words “With faith…” inscribed at the top and “…all is possible” at the bottom. Between these words a tree is sculpted into the pendant. At the base of the tree is something interesting. In what I believe to be a fiberglass casing, there is a small, yellow-orangish mustard seed. The whole purpose of the necklace is to remind the one wearing it, if not others, of the scripture of when Jesus said that the “Faith of the mustard seed can move mountains.” I was a little hesitant in buying this necklace at first because I hate clichés. For example I like to have a reason or conviction of my own for everything that I believe. I can’t stand it when you ask someone what they believe and the answer is “It’s the way I was raised” or “It’s what my pastor teaches.”*

This is used in most cases in a Sunday-school room with the children. Perhaps for self-esteem or we use it to encourage people that are facing hard times, that if they have faith the current situation will change to something better and more desirable.* Well, I bought the necklace. And as I’ve been wearing it I feel like God has been revealing something to me. Several times I’ve sat on my bed and just stared at the little seed, and felt intimidated. Again we use this example as a metaphor of how “small” one’s faith can be and still have “impact” or “change.” What intimidated me was not that this little seed was so small, but when thinking of my faith this seed was so big. The reason is that this seed had something that I have not seen in most people, who talk about, or claim that they have, faith; it had substance. This little seed was a solid, tangible object. Please understand, I know that faith is invisible, as is God, yet it should have substance. What is the difference between small faith from hope, from the difference of just an idea that we have or simply go along with and claim to have because it is popular among us Christians? I am not saying that if you do not have “visible” faith that you are not a Christian, I just want us to be careful that we don’t use this as a cop-out to be timid or remain in our comfort zones, and I want to encourage. Following the example of how the small
seed is, we often use another example of how this tiny seed can grow into a mighty tree (thus the carving on the pendant). That is the seeds potential. Faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains. That is what that little faith has the potential to do. Our faith should also have the potential to grow mighty.

In that faith there is the potential to do great things. There is potential! To heal the sick, to break strongholds, to raise the dead, to speak in other languages that you do not know*, to do what most consider inhuman things. What I am saying is do not limit yourself. Realize the potential that you have. Do not let your faith be an idea but a real thing. Often said is this, “I believe that God can do it if he wants to.” That is unsubstantial faith. Faith with substance says “This will happen!” We use the mountains has a metaphor for hard things in life, but has anyone ever considered ACTUALLY moving a mountain? Small faith should always end up big. The great thing is, all people have the potential to have big faith! Everything, except God, was birthed from nothing but had to have elements around it for that creation. The universe from the word of God, man from the earth and the breath of God, woman from the man’s rib, clouds from temperature and pressure changes, fire from a friction or heat, and oxygen or gas, and a SUBTANCE on which it can burn. A child was once nothing yet by the will of God that child can come to be through God’s design. Even the mustard seed is a product of a previous plant*. So what is the element from which that substance of faith is born? Hope. When one hopes in Jesus his faith can become real. When one has faith in Jesus things can happen. I want to clarify that I’m not saying that you should “do” things to look good. Faith is not some form of magic to do amazing things but a characteristic that we need to do the will of the Lord. And by having faith in Jesus, allowing our faith to grow, and surrounding ourselves with Godly council, what will of God is will continue to become ever so clearer as we continue on in our walk with and for Christ. And you will begin to find that God has plans for your mustard seed of an existence to become something mighty. That is the love that he has for us, and THAT is the hope of which our faith can come into existence. And by being humble to the Lord as the Bible instructs; that faith will be sheltered and built up. It will grow to something mighty.

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1* I am not at all saying that those are necessarily bad things. I believe that being apart of a church and certainly obeying you parents is God’s design for people. God knows that we are people with weaknesses and confusion, we NEED to mingle and fellowship with others so that we may always be edified (Eph4:29). However, what we should have is a deep enough relationship with the Lord that we DO have our own conviction for everything. We should follow the example of our parents, or pastors, or whoever else to have a guide. Yet as one grows in the Lord they should rely more on the spirit. Basically I believe that God has a special revelation for everyone. And if truly sought out these different convictions will NOT collide because I believe that God is a God who does not change. He is a God who moves, but he “IS.”

2* I often hear something said concerning hard times and having faith or asking God for something. What is said are things as such: “Don’t ask for patience or God will give you a harder situation to be patient”, “Don’t ask for better finances or God will give you a tighter budget.” This sort of attitude strongly annoys me. The most major part of faith is trusting God and knowing that he wants what is best for us. I think it awfully cold of God to give us a harder situation on top of the one we are already facing. In trusting him we should believe that he knows what is best for us. God is the judge of all things in the universe, with such an occupation; we should expect that he pretty darn good at judging. He knows the desires of our hearts, if we need patience he will give it to us. If we truly need money, then he will bless us with what we need. And if we should need a situation in which we need to be patient, then we must trust God’s judgment in that that is really what the best thing is for us. We should have the willingness to go to a tighter budget but the expectancy to receive a gift. Do not let fear of “something harder” deprive you of a gift that God may be ready to give.

3* I put a footnote beside this because I was not necessarily talking about tongues. Tongues can be interpreted by an interpreter as Paul says but it is also a prayer language between oneself and God that should be kept quiet when others are around UNLESS the spirit leads one to speak in tongues. I believe that everyone should receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit and speak in tongues as Paul, Jude, and others stated. However what I am talking about here is ACTUALLY speaking Japanese (or any language) to Japanese people when you never previously knew it, be it the will of God.

4* I love how Jesus knew what he was talking about when he used the seed as an example. Not only can the seed grow into a might thing, but it can be the catalyst for new seeds, as we should do as Christians anyway.

Are you desperate?

Ok..

Think for a while. I have just been watching the video under this piece of text. I was shocked. I was very shocked. I cried more than ever before. Just because I easily wander away from God without realization of how bad I am thinking, feeling, and doing. My deeds are led by thoughts, and when you’re not 100% focused on God your thoughts will never be led by Him. You have to LET HIM BE YOUR FOCUS. As I said in my older post, temptations take you away from God’s presence, from God’s goal, you just concentrate on other things. In God everything is possible!

But are you 100% focused? Are you WILLING? Are you DESPERATE? Crying your eyes out when you think of the worlds needs and it’s emptiness? What do you feel when you think about all the things that are happening, New Zealand, Japan, Libya, Egypt, even Haïti, the tsunami in Thailand, 9/11? WHAT DO YOU FEEL? Well, I ACHE when I see what happens. I ache God’s ache. I ache for this world, for souls to be won, lives to be saved. I ache for every lost soul that hasn’t got a chance to see a glimpse of Jesus..

I live in a country that is desperate, blind and going the opposite direction of what God wants. Are you willing to focus again, to start over, fresh, with God’s burning fire? Listen to this video and keep focused on the lyrics. Are you willing to stand up for God? Let this message touch your heart..

And lead us not into temptation..

Haven’t written in a while! Thought I should, since it’s already been a few weeks. In that few weeks I definitely didn’t have an easy time. I came to face a lot of different things. That is what I wanna share with you today: temptations, and how you can resist them.

You know, I went through a lot of crappy stuff in my life. I tried many things to get rid of that whole mess. The devil does manage to bring them back to me in some ways; many different things, in many different ways, and even the moments are different. Your heart just wanders away to places you shouldn’t be, to things, visions or memories you shouldn’t look at or be reminded of. I have always held on to this scripture:

“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” (1 Corinthians 10:13)

That is such a truth! God NEVER gives you more than you can handle! You could say, he gives you LESS than your limits! You only have to figure out the best way to deal with it. In 1 Timothy 6:6-10 it says..:

“But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. Those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.”

See how many temptations you can bear.. only from this scripture; worldly, earthly things, things that make you fall into traps, like impurity, pride, lying, deceiving or stealing, love for money, food and clothing, or your love for idols or persons from a certain sex. Everything seems to fit in. You can summarize it easily: everything that makes you wander away from God is a temptation and is something you should not give in to but resist. God has to be your focus!

James 1:2 says you may rejoice in facing trials, making you persevere in your faith, forming you in God’s shape, the shape He wants to make you. I always know that when I go through something, God has always a plan for it, for every resisted temptation He blesses you and He is able to do His work in you better. Also because resisting causes you to keep the devil from having any entrance in your life.

“Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” (Romans 5:1-6)

We may always know that God loves us, He gave us life, a hope, a future. We may life and be filled with His love and his forgiveness, and yeah, we can always make mistakes. We just shouldn’t forget to repent of what we did wrong. If things keep on haunting us, it is important to send it away, to ask God to help you. You have to remember God is there for you. As I already used the scripture of God not giving you more than you can bear, it doesn’t mean that YOU can handle it. Most people give in to temptations, we don’t have to! We just have to seek God and ask Him to take care of what WE cannot handle. You have to believe He is able to handle it and be humble to ask Him to handle it, to trust Him in taking care of it in a way that no one can. God only wants the good for you, He will always give you the best of the best, and never less!

Another funny example of something we can always pray is the prayer Jesus taught His disciples. It ends with “and lead us not into temptation [but deliver us from evil]“. I think that says enough! God will help you to stay away from temptations, as long as we stay close to Him. Doesn’t mean we will never face them, I think it’s the opposite. But God wants to take care of it. He wants to deliver you from everything that is holding you back from being free and being you! We can be so grateful for that! I am learning to be more grateful every day.. which is not always easy. God helps me with that:)

Wind.

I love the wind

I love it blowing

In my face

 

I like it soft

I like it strong

It’s there in many ways

 

It never leaves

It never changes

It’s always there

 

You always feel it

And when you move

It moves with you anywhere

 

Just like the wind

In it’s function

God’s always there

 

He never leaves

He never sleeps

He takes you anywhere

 

To Know God. What’s that like?

“To know you is never worry for my life, and
To know you is to never to give in or compromise
To know you is to want to tell the world about you
Cause I can’t live without you

To know you is to hear your voice when you are calling
To know you is to catch my brother when he is falling
To know you is to feel the pain of the broken hearted
Cause they can’t live with out you.

To know you is to ache for more than ordinary
To know you is to look beyond the temporary
To know you is believing that you will be enough
Cause there is no life without you.

More than my next breath
More than life or death
All reaching for, I live my life to know you more
I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies
To know you is to want to know you more
To know you is to want to know you more

All this life could offer me, could not compare to you
Compare to you
And I count it all as loss, compared to knowing you
Knowing you“

(Casting Crowns – To Know You)

I just totally love this song. In my opinion it’s one of the best ever written… I wish I had written it myself. It totally expresses what our life as born-again christians should be like. We should never compromise, we should be aware of the fact that God is always there to protect us. I believe that every person has angels watching over them. And yeah, we should be open to tell people about Jesus, and express his love. We should keep each other standing and immediately listen when God speaks. And I believe that God wants to show us his heart.. In the way of experiencing his emotions. This also makes us able to be compassionate to others.

I am definitely hungry, I wanna know God’s heart. I wanna reach the ultimate goal I can reach. I wanna survive and conquer, to then get my promises fulfilled. We should live in that fact, we should stand in our promises, and never do something for pleasure at one moment. Always look forward to the future. Never too much, but be aware of everything. We should always focus on God. He is everything we need. He gives us all we ask, but he should be something we’re content with. Our goal is to know him.. To come to know him. Our hearts should be aching for that, we should be very eager to chase God in any way. The more we follow him, the more we become like Jesus. Life is temporary, God is eternal. Actually it’s pretty easy to be aware of this. But yeah, fulfilling it is a little bit harder.

We should be different from others.. Actually totally different. I never fit in. I at first didn’t know why, but now I do. God wants us to shine.. And yeah, people see that, we will always be different. Not negative, but we will never be like others. You can’t, if you’re a true christian. Pretty a shock for some of you maybe, but definitely true. We should be the light on the stand. In Luke 8 Jesus talks about this:

“No one lights a lamp and hides it in a clay jar or puts it under a bed. Instead, they put it on a stand, so that those who come in can see the light. For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open. Therefore consider carefully how you listen. Whoever has will be given more; whoever does not have, even what they think they have will be taken from them.”

Another passage talks about people praising God because of seeing your good deeds (Mat. 5:16 – In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.). People should, if they would know God. Some people become jealous though. Which is really sad, but that is the way it is. We should change that though. But still, I suffer a lot from people prejudicing me because of my life, my standards and my faith in God. They think I am weird, but silently some admire me. And yeah, I figure that out after a few years most of the time, after being not that close to that people anymore. 

But you know, I got used to being spit out by people. I don’t believe you can live a life with God without suffering enough. But God always helps you through. We can look at Jesus, the person who suffered the most of all. I long for being even a LITTLE like him. And I am not blameless, I am never without sin. Every day there are things that I look back on with sadness.

He then began to teach them that the Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and after three days rise again. - Mark 8:31

But life with God is amazing. God does the most amazing things. God promises us good things every day. He gives us more power than he gave Jesus! Jesus had God’s power to heal people, even through touching him, to convert them,
to even raise people from the dead. I cannot wait to see what God will do in my life. I am eager to follow him all the days of my life. Life with God is so exciting! Can’t wait to see how he will use me. Can’t wait for other people to taste him. I really wanna reach out to them. I believe my life is not my own, it’s Gods. It’s the least I could do for him after him sacrificing his own son for our good.

God loves me so much, YOU so much. He loves you, he loves you, HE LOVES YOU! Unconditionally. More than anyone else. And through me he helps other people in finding him. But ok, we have to pray for the people we know, for our friends, family, relatives, acquintances, that they will see something in us, and that they’ll be eager and hungry to find the same. To find God!

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Birthday – I am getting old! Haha..

So.. Two days ago was my birthday! I have to say that I am happy to still be alive. I can be so thankful for my life right now.. I have a few amazing friends, an amazing family, the best best friend and boyfriend ever..

There have been moments in my life that the devil tried to rip me out of life, to just take the easiest way out. I am so glad I didn’t. Every morning I woke up.. God’s grace renewed. He always gave me strength to go on during a lot of mess I had to go through. It made me who I am. And God is always there by my side.. He is healing me. He makes me strong and blossoming! I can be so thankful for everything.. you should too! When you read this just take a second to not think of all the mess you’re in. Think of the good stuff. There has been a time that I wrote everything down. Every tiny little thing that made me smile during the day. I should start with that again. A daily thankfullness book..

I had an amazing day. Even though some of my friends are not that close.. neither is my boyfriend. But ok, life goes on. Life is what you make of it.. and so is your birthday! I always think of the fact there are SO MANY birthdays to spend with him..  So.. still I am happy! He did make me happy. He arranged an awesome present and let my mom take care of it. Always nice, a surprise from him.

I bet I should go. This week is busy. A lot of tests for school.

 

“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change. (James 1:17)”

Another random pop-in..

Wind is blowing in my face
Cannot see the road I’m going
My heart filled with disgrace
From all the trials I’ve been facing
I’m worn out, I’m feeling down
Don’t know where to turn to
Then I bow my knees and pray
Knowing you will always listen

I am tired, of all this pressure
I don’t know what I should do
And still, I try to let You measure
All the things that I go through
My legs are numb, I´m weak and lost
I need You to lead me on
Still depend on you God
Knowing you are always by my side

Who can fathom?

“Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens?
Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance?”
(Isaiah 40:12; NIV) If you think about this scripture it’s really something you can relate to. At least I could. It’s amazing to read books like Isaiah or other prophets who actually seem to have so much wisdom. So did David and Solomon in the Psalms and Proverbs. But this scripture makes me think. Think about God, his greatness and glory. How amazing it is that He holds the world in His hands and that He actually made everything. Things like nature, animals, and us. It makes me stand amazed.

I just cannot imagine how it would be without everything, or how it would be without God. I wouldn’t have existed. It is amazing that someone has so much creativity to make all the things that exist right now. When you look at the human body or look at nature. It’s all different, creative and magnificent. All so unique. That’s why I enjoy it a lot to enjoy nature or learn about things.. I can see God’s greatness in it.. It makes me happy, makes me feel free and it makes me ALIVE!

God is just so awesome! He totally stuns me at moments I read things like this.. He winks at me through nature. By showing me a beautiful rainbow, a cloudbreak or the sun peeking in through a hole in the clouds.. Wow! It looks perfect. Can’t wait to finally have time to enjoy nature more after I graduate..

Love Poem

Here’s a post of the poem I sent my boyfriend. I made a powerpoint presentation with pictures and also added some recorded audio (not gonna post that on here, too personal)! Awesome! He was speechless. Loved it. I love him so much! <3

I just wanted something to say,

While we’re not able to celebrate this special day,

I know we can’t be together now,

But we will, one day, somewhere, somehow.

I have to say, you make me smile,

Even if I haven’t seen you in a while.

You are the one that motivates and inspires me,

And you are the one who makes me feel me.

You make me feel beautiful and blessed,

And I am glad I can make you feel at your best,

Cause you deserve someone who loves and makes you feel free,

I am lucky and thankful that person is me.

You are a true gift from God above,

You showed me how two people can love,

Unconditional love is between us to find,

With  Gods blessing you can call it divine.

I cherish everything we did as important memories,

They’re engraved in my heart, only God sees.

And every time I feel bad I look at them,

The smile immediately returns, there and then.

I can t wait for our life together to start,

Then we can share every issue with each other from the heart.

I know that it will be exciting and never boring,

Especially not when I can wake up next to you every morning.

I love you with all my heart,

I know I did right from the start.

That is something I always will do,

Till death  seperates me and you.

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